Jamming my pen into the paper i began to write out my pain,my hurt feelings, my emotions,the cruel betrayal that i feel.  He always told me if he found a cross-eyed, bullegged women he would leave me!  but i thought he was kidding!!  he was serious!! oH MY gOSH!  he actually found one!!!  but what are the chances...i mean it took me 3 years to find the man i was looking for. He plays tennis for the first time,serves a wild one over the fence,hits this bitch in the butt  and three days later their engaged.  I am so much prettier than her.All my friends tell me so. why am i hurt and jeaolus about an ugly woman?  I guess because my heart still loves a selfish,inconsiderate jerk of a man..truth is, we cant help who we have feelings for..just happens..sometimes quickly,sometimes slowly.