Hello. I am an elderly Polish woman of Ashkenazi ancestry and this is my final journal entry. I am so glad to be writing it before my death. Death on my own terms, not on someone else’s. I have been traveling around the world for many years, even when – officially – I was not supposed to. I have visited more than fifty countries and I understand cultural relativity. I never talk about issues I have not experienced firsthand. I don’t know why you’re reading the final journal entry of an old hag, but hey – that’s your choice. Lately, however, I have seen Earth’s status deteriorate quickly. Make no mistake, I know what hardship is: I know it because I have lived it, unlike many pompous white-shoe Westerners who have no idea what it means to see SS-troops all around you; nothing on the shelves; to be chased by ZOMO and having guns pointed at you; facing a Soviet tank with Russian nitwits inside or seeing what UPA(Ukrainian Insurgent Army) can do if they don’t like you. Hardship – from time to time – is good, see. Without it, a mere ‘’black swan event’’ paralyzes you. When you are used to hardship, you simply laugh and go on. It tempers the spirit and you understand that after good some bad is going to come; you understand that mindless squandering of your personal resources without ever thinking about the consequences is a bad move. You understand this because your sense of history tells you so. Without the sense you will merely be here. Be now. You will not understand how the system operates and that it will turn around…. eventually. This is the danger behind young nations with no sense of history. Yes, it is important to move on and not to always look back, of course it is…but without the balance, you can forget about stability. This is when shock and dismay arrive. We, the Jews, we know it very well. We saw many empires fall because of this…it was always so. Even the Romans used to say ‘’A Roman thief is better than an Egyptian aristocrat.’’ Imperial mindset – dangerous and as old as humanity. Garrula lingua nocet. Remember that.
It also amuses me how the ‘’Western world’’, particularly the USA, they always mention their ‘’help.’’ Well, help my ****. No one has helped me and I would not want this help anyway. So don’t flatter yourselves. Don’t ascribe to something which is not yours, because all you do is charge people for VISAS and then detain them without charge with smirks on your faces. The Land of the Free, bah. Maybe 100 years ago; now it’s the ‘’Too big to fail corporation supporter’’ land. Because when it comes down to it, you gotta be your own man/woman. No one is going to come and help you. I should know better than anyone and I never expected anything more than diplomatic doubletalk. Where was I? Oh. Of course. I must admit that Jews are clever people. They do have certain innate language abilities and – of course – financial ones. Funny at the same time, Semitic peoples this means much more than the Jews, you see. Funny how people do not notice this. They tell me that Jews are arrogant and cunning. Some are, most definitely. Some are downright bastards and they control a lot on this planet. But I personally witnessed what is happening with the Palestinians, I saw it all…and I find it to be an abomination. Yes, I do believe that some Jews are suffering from a ‘’Nazi complex.’’ Sadly. I despise circumcision and I am by no means affiliated with any religious practices.
People impose their own self-bias upon themselves. They cannot simply perceive themselves as human. It both amuses and angers me. The same level of intelligence can be discerned in them, though: the more intelligent a person is, the more he/she is capable of transcending artificial boundaries. I do not believe in IQ’s but from what I can tell, people of 130 and lower IQ are actually very much like that…self-biased imposed upon themselves and they do not even realize it. Do I hate country A? Why would I? I do not hate a piece of land. If anything, people anger me. People filled with propaganda, too limited intellectually to notice what they are actually doing. Too focused on their tribal quibbles to see what is really going on. Some really beautiful places on this planet are populated by some really stupid and xenophobic people. You want to fight? You want some saber-rattling? Fine, bring it on. Let us end this nonsense once and for all. Let us fight. To the death. I have seen too many ‘’Master Races’’ in my lifetime to be phased by your dick contests. I even saw the ‘’Lebensborn’’ with my own eyes… children there were retarded, even though their genes were supposed to be ARYAN! True power does not need weapons – true power means respect. Weapons represent fear. True power comes from within. You probably think this is just a slogan. Oh, how wrong you are. I put my ninety years of experience against your view and let’s see who’s right. Now that I come to think of it, life has treated me with a mosaic of experiences that most of you will never understand. Does that make me unlucky, moving from one totalitarian insanity to another? No … as surprised as I am, I enjoy those times immensely and I would not trade them for anything. They were the most interesting and exciting times of my life, a true essence, not what I see around me now – bland faces and corporate robots. This is freedom? So yes, despite all of the above I think this is the time to leave. If things get really nasty, I am too old to experience it all over again. And messy it will be. My life – a perpetual state of crisis – my life has been filled with them. Enough, I say.
This is why I have contacted an organization that helps others die with dignity. I have contacted them and they have mentioned an ‘’appraisal letter.’’ I never heard of it before and had to look it up in my dictionary. I read it and froze. What kind of a psychiatrist was going to provide me with such a letter? Doctor Kevorkian? How grotesque that being born on a particular piece of Earth gives you different imperatives and choices in life. Such is the human way, it would seem. The way of the absurd disguised as the way of reason. After ninety years, I am still shocked by humanity. To Switzerland I finally flew. I like Switzerland, the country where people respect privacy and understand secrecy. Expensive as hell, but who cares. Not a single war since the 1500’s. Lucky bastards. Still, women were allowed to vote around 1970’s. And we call ourselves civilized! From what I understand, if you are a woman and you earn something, your husband takes it anyway. Isn’t the word ‘’woman’’ from Anglo-Saxon ‘’wife-man?’’ A portmanteau perhaps? Funny how language gives us clues about our perception of the world… My room is ready but before that I am going to observe the world and dine in luxury. Help some poor souls here and there, too…oh, will I have a ball. Ha, I am ninety and still alive and well, Auschwitz hardens you. Though you do get a little off as well; you always think: ‘’What would this person be like if they’re there with me, inside the anus mundi?’’ But – on the other hand – extremely powerful situations form extremely powerful friendships. Concentration camp friendship. Military mission friendship, when you literally hold someone else’s life in your hands. And you save it…and then they save yours. Or not. Today’s friendship among people can be condensed to a phrase: ‘’What’s in it for me? I like you as long as you’re rich – if you no longer rich, then I don’t know you.’’ So – in essence – there’s no modern friendship. There’s only business. Far-fetched? Deep down you know I’m right. For Capitalism does just that – a system as sick as Communism as envisioned by that Generalissimus who wanted to created an army of ape-human perfect soldier hybrids. Capitalism is simply slicker in the sense that it gives you an illusion of freedom. But to equate Capitalism/Democracy with freedom? Oh my, pass the bag will you…and I’m no anarchist, mind you. I’m merely laughing at it all.
How can people be so stupid? Is this proclivity toward stupidity natural or is this an artificially-induced mechanism? EH!? Doesn’t matter where you’re from: lack of intelligence speaks for itself. I’m very egalitarian here. Six billion + dancing circus monkeys, others species must be laughing their butts off. If they’ve butts, that is. KEPLER, WHERE THE **** ARE YOU!? The IMF? The World Bank? The World Homicide Organization? The UN? **** ‘em. Oh like it, like it – I do it like a truck…
You have no idea how much better it all gets when you know you control your own demise. To me, that is the weathervane of freedom. I saw too many people who begged to die, who begged to leave…this filled me with disgust, their torment…and I vowed to leave on my own terms, no matter what it took. I am sure God will understand, It is an omniscient, omnipotent being, after all. I lived a full life…as full as you can get. They wanna vaccinate us all so we are dead? They think we are cattle? Let the WHO come and supersede all the governments, then! Let ‘em come, I say! My life’s about to be over anyway! And hell, at least I know that the way humanity is now is not natural – but manipulated from behind the scenes by ego-maniacs and psychopaths! Great to know that there’s more to life than…taxes…children…aging…war…social norm adherence…self-induced guilt trips because society tells me so…money…survival. You know what, society? You know what, humanity? You know what, Illuminati? A MERRILY UTTERED **** YOU FLIES YOUR WAY! That’s right! HAHA! I cut through the **** with merciless take-no-prisoners - precision and see everything with crystal quality. Contrary to all the sheeple out there. ****, sounds elitist. But hey, I’ve got some life experience so gimme some leeway, ok!? You know what, if there’s a lethal vaccination plan coming – you sure as hell deserve it for sitting around like cowards and doing nothing! And I can call a spade a spade because I’ve been around far longer than you! I’m not Obama, the biggest conman-in-chief of all! Why do government people resign when they’re part of 9/11 truth movement?! They’re the one that should **** stay! This is how a truly free society would react, anyway… But enough of this. I won’t waste any more of my time on some nitwits. Time for some pleasantries! Waiter? *Looks around nervously* Waiter!? *Sighs in relief* Ah, there you are waiter! Yes, I'll have some of that please...mmm...some electro boogie later on for a big tip? *flirtatious wink* P.S. You know what? Since everything’s about to collapse and humanity’s about to be exterminated by the WHO global mandatory vaccination plan starting 28th of September 2009 in France, I may as well stick around and watch the action unfold! 194 nations – batten down the hatches! Or whatever the expression is…and be quick with the vaccine, please! I already planned my next life destination! Won’t tell you what it is, though. Who the **** are you – a snitch!? The one that messes with the ballots just like Stalin!? Nu, pogodi!