"f***k!!" i yelled to myself what the f**k was i gonna do. I had just came home from a 10 hr work day at the The Function which was a club across town where i was a bartender. Im just gettin to my door when i see a f***king eviction notice damn i know i gave my mama the money to pay the bill last week what the f***k did she do with the money. 

just then i hear a commotion inside the apartment i quickly scramble for my keys hoping my mom is okay ... but when i get inside rage replaces worry. 

"WHAT THE HELL!" i yell... right in front of me my mother is snorting coke and some dirty nigga was stealin my flat screen t.v 

*hey baby why you home so early* said my mama that right there let me know she was high as hell i always came home at this time. but the fact being i finally realized where alot of my money had been going 

"are you serious mama we just got you off that s***t! and who the f***k is you! put my damn t.v down and get the h*ll out before i call the police and have both yall a**'s locked up!" 

*now gone wit that attitude we just having fun and im grown im yo mama so dont be yelling at me like im yo damn child!* 

i was livid i didnt know whether to beat the hell out of my mama or myself for thinking s***t would change. 

After dude scary a** ran out my door i threw my mama in her room and locked her a** in there. cleaned up the mess them muf***kas had made and called my landlord to ask for and extension on this months rent. 

I went in my room and locked my door took off my clothes and got in the shower hoping the steam would help me relax. i cant believe this s***t my mama back on drugs which means more money out of my pocket for her rehab for the third time. bills are behind because of her habit and i still have to get ready for school in a couple of hours and im late on school loans. i should have seen this s**t coming a mile away. 

moving from cincinnati,ohio to harlem,new york was a big leap for me and my mom. she had long divorced my father and i was about 12 when we got here. she wanted to explore and live somewhere besides where she was born and raised and decided upon new york. 

when we got here it was something beautiful to me because it was new but my mom couldnt have been more excited. oh by the way my name is Leilani Danielle Brown but everyone else just calls me lei. my mom is Millani Naysa Lee shes Indian,White and chinese 5'7 with green/gray eyes and light brown hair that goes way past her back. my Father is La'ron David Brown hes Black and white 6'2 with hazel eyes with a low cut or he might have let it grow out i wouldnt know i havent seen him in years. 

im 5'8 light caramel colored skin hazel green eyes and jet black hair that goes to the middle of my back. a nicely proportioned body 38C breast and an a** to match i would thank my mom but you couldnt tell now. after she had gotten deep into drugs she lost her shape and it took some of her beauty. 

my mom seemed to be on top of her game when we got here but she got some male attention and fell for some nigga who she thought was the one. turns out the nigga was a closet addict and had got my mama using. after her habit got out of control he dipped and left me to deal with her. 

7 yrs later after becoming the provider at 13 working illegally and balancing school. i managed to graduate and deal wit her s***t two times already now i gotta deal wit this s**t again ..... UGH well welcome to the life of me ...