A second thought ran through my head and I had to sit down and think things through. "Maybe it is more than just a ring." "what kind of person would I be to break up a marriage?" So many thoughts ran through my head. I knew I couldn't go on living with this feeling of temptation. All the what if's and heart ache there is. I had to decide today, right now what I was going to do. Perhaps just let her flow out of my mind, if that is even possible.

Quickly without realizing it, I changed my direction of thoughts. I took a step towards the coffee pot in hopes that maybe the caffeine will get my mind working better. I sat down with my coffee and before the cup was even gone I felt this dark, gloomy feeling take over my body. I just couldn't help it anymore. I had to give in. 

My body was telling me to find a dark room with some heart wrenching music and just let my eyes pour down like rain. Suddenly the phone rang. I didn't want to answer it. after all, I knew It wasn't her. I stood up slowly and walked over to the table where the phone was sitting.