"I'm tapped in, information flows through me, sometimes I don't even realize what I'm saying."
"Do you remember saying you knew I would have a girl when I said, 'There's a spirit that's waiting to be born to me', right before you reached climax last night?"
"Is that what I said? I remember you were suddenly really worried that I was going to impregnate you."
"I know, I was! I felt her presence in the room! That's never happened to me during sex. You said, 'Don't worry, she'll come when we want her to. It'll be our conscious decision'. You said 'she'. And the thing is, I already know I'm going to have a girl because of dreams I've had. Intuition. So, it was surprising to hear you say that."
"What's so surprising? You know I'm tapped in."
"I know, I guess it's just having you validate my foresight was a bit overwhelming. Sometimes I think it's just my active imagination as opposed to true intuition."
"There is a thin line between what you're creating with your thoughts, and truths that are already set in stone and cannot be changed. Like, you will one day have a little girl."
"I don't honestly think you and I should have a child together. I need to meet someone else to be the dad."
"You wouldn't make a very good father, no offense. You're all over the place. I want a real partnership, a monogamous lover."
"Monogamous...yeah, I'm probably not the right guy then. Are you sure you'd really be happy in a relationship like that? Is that really what you want?"
"Yes, I really do. I'm sure it won't be a conventional relationship by any means, but I do want loyalty and commitment. A fulfilling, passionate love that lasts a lifetime."
"Well, then that's what you deserve. You're so beautiful."
This is a typical conversation between Kyle and I. Two lone wolves, wondering the globe, creating our own paths which few follow. The mutual respect of our two free-spirits is all-encompassing, sparking a fiery friendship so magnetic that passersby stare, eyes filled with either fear or awe, when we walk down the street side by side. It's a phenomenon we both acknowledge, but don't quite understand. Not fully, anyway. There's a lot more going on beyond the visible layers of space and time than our minds are able to comprehend. I suppose that goes without saying, though; whether you believe in God or Science, that last statement holds true. What I do know is that when Kyle and I come together, our consciousness and energy combining, we open doors and make things happen which wouldn't have happened on our own.
When we first met, our lives were tossed this way and that, like an earthquake with several after shocks. Although we knew it was the result of us meeting, we didn't realize we could control it and ask for what we wanted, choose which doors to open. We have since become aware of the power of our union as well as the ability to focus that explosive energy in the direction we choose our consciousness to go.
Four years have passed since our first encounter. We rarely see each other now, but when we do, I feel excitement and relief all at once. Excitement, knowing my I am about to be catapulted further on my journey, learning much more in a small space of time than I usually do. Relief, because knowing he exists on this earth and being in his presence helps me to feel at home, a sense of peace that someone understands my thought-processes and can relate to my experiences.
Here he is, sitting in my apartment, after I received a phone call from him (out of the blue) saying he was in San Francisco, my current home. The last time we united was over two years ago in Australia. His hair is short now, and has gone fully gray. His stunning light eyes mesmerize me as usual. His timing was, of course, impeccable: two days ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of six months after finding out he was cheating on me. I find it refreshing to come across men like Kyle who are very open and honest about being promiscuous, letting women know right from the beginning where they stand. I can respect either way of life, as long as you're honest about it. What would have happened if Kyle had strolled through town while I had a boyfriend? I guess I'll never have to know. The sexual tension and chemistry between he and I is so brilliantly vivid it would've been quite a challenge for me restrain myself. As I'm having these thoughts he's talking on and on about the people he's made friends (and enemies) with in Kauai, using his hands enthusiastically as he speaks, his facial expressions bringing his stories to life. Wow, it's good to see him...