Discussion of "The Resolutions" by imadj

It’s hard to open yourself in such a way.

I would be lying if I said I have not thought of an affair before, I think everyone has at one time or another when they meet someone attractive and click with them. I myself only out of the thought of what would happen to my marriage if I did and the desire for carnal experience different than my wife.

I could never though. I truly love my wife with all my heart. She is the one I have looked for, for all of my life. I truly feel that we are two halves of a broken soul cast out into the unknown with hopes of finding our separate halves in the infinite recesses of fate.

But, if you truly feel that way, and this is not just a story, you should tell him how you feel first, and act on desire second.

Try to remember why you married this man in the first place and figure out where you have lost the love for him. If it was in a place that you can no longer find or remember than you would be just lying to yourself in hopes of not losing what you truly love right now; your kids.

But you must answer one question of yourself first. What is it you want more, a lasting love that can be possibly rekindled if you still love this man or a fleeting moment of love that is grounded in desire?

Only you can answer this question. Only you have the power to give of yourself that which is more valuable than any commodity on earth. Your heart. A heart that beats with desire to be loved by another. Unfortunately it is the hardest thing to give when it is lost in a loveless relationship.

I am truly sorry you are experiencing these feelings. I hope that you make the right choices, for they are yours and yours alone my friend.

On a different note I came to tell you I wrote another chapter to “in the shroud of shadow” and wished to know what you think of it, I just happened to pick this story because it was your most recent. Sorry if I have overstepped or voiced an opinion I had no place to make.

Know this, no matter who you are; or what you look like you are beautiful to me.

With Love,
~X~

Wow. I didn't think I was that transparent. I almost wrote back to tell you that it was in no way based in fact and that I am, in reality, a 14 year old boy. But, why bother. Truth is, that is me and those are my thoughts. But that is all they are --just thoughts. And I like to explore these things in stories where it's safe and I can see what happens. I thought this forum may even prove more interesting because other people could add their own twists -- makes it more unpredictable and real somehow. You are very nice to write all that, though. And, of course, your advice and insight touch on everything I've already told myself a hundred times. That's why I haven't acted on these thoughts. Probably won't.I guess I am just thinking out loud. Gotta watch that! Oh, and by the way, I hope your wife realizes how lucky she is! What beautiful things you said about her!!
On another note, I will read your next chapter in the story and leave you another note there. Thanks, really, for writing, though. You made me feel better!

you know, I have no idea why I wrote all that. Kinda sappy. Should have kept my big mouth shut. I started out writing nice personal intrest story but then I backspaced and that is what came out.
You should have wrote me back saying you were a 14 year old boy, though I would have laughed so hard at myself that I probably would have choked on my coffee.
should have just put it up as a next chapter. oh well, at least you didn't call me a presumptuous little ****. I gotta watch what I write.
~X~