Black and blue, colors I know well

Colors of an unspoken past

Colors of memories that can't be forgotton

Colors that were left after he was gone

Marks like the memories i still have

Marks of a cruel past he didn't want me to forget

Marks that made me untouchble

That made me distant

The looks my friends would give me

The looks teachers gave me

The looks my sister gave me

Lies

The lies i made to cover it up

What happend to your arm

Oh I fell  you know I'm a clutz

The lies so he could keep his job

So daddy could provide for his family

The lies that to this day I want to believe were true

The journal in my mind

The one that can't be burned

I can't destroy it

That's where the "medicine" came into play

It made me numb and for a few hours life wasn't scary

I wanted this forever

This numb had became my addiction

And to have it ment the  day was going to past

Nomatter what he did i had my numb

Numb

Because feeling nothing is a hell of a lot better than feeling evrything

But the numb was killing me

Slowly killing me

But that wasn't enought to get me to stop

because if i died numb it would be a blessing

Help

I needed help but being numb made evrything so slow

Being numb made me mute

Made me invisible

My own world awaited me with open arms

Numb was my true love

When I kissed him i could taste the poisen hit my tastebuds

It didnt matter

Because I was

NUMB