Okay ill start out by saying being a “It” girl is not all its cracked up to be. If you were never naturally popular then you always have to watch what you say. Since in movies the girls that are “It” girls look anorexic, you can’t eat too little because then you get asked constantly “Are you all right?” , “Is everything okay?”, “Why do you eat so little?”. To top that you always have the girl that hates you and badmouths you. Of course everyone hates her but still its not easy to be told that nobody likes you everyday. Other than all the crud that you put up with. Being an “It “ girl is fine. The only problem is that when you don’t do the right thing or say it then you get left behind in the dust.
Alright so it started out easy enough I met her, we were friends, I became friends with her friends , I did something wrong and I lost it all. Well most of it anyway.
I went to school and my so-called “friends” completely ignored me. I tried to ask them what was wrong but that didn’t help.
As soon as I sat down in my GATE class I knew something was wrong. Usually me and my friend Tami start talking. Today though it was different. I tried to talk to her but I got nothing in return.
“Tami, is Kaitie mad at me?” I asked desperate for some response.
“I don’t know.” Tami said still looking down at her paper.
“Are you mad at me?” I asked on the verge of tears. Because these people were supposed my best friends. I couldn’t believe how cold she was being.
“I don’t know.” She said her eyes as cold as stone.
At that point I just turned around. As I tried to read my book her words and lack of were starting to sting. Then all of a sudden I broke.
“Why? What did I do ?! why wont you talk to me?!” I screamed in head. That’s when it started. This was the real pain. The crying. Okay more like quietly sobbing, but still.
Right when the tears started flowing, my friend Mike turns toward me and it like why are you crying.
Through sobs I managed to choke out “My boo-kks saad.”.
“Whats it about?” he asked oblivious to the fact that with every second that passed I was getting closer to running out of the room sobbing.
That’s when I decided that I didn’t care anymore. If people knew that Tami and I weren’t talking, then so be it.
“Ask Tami.” I said with with both anger and sadness in my voice.
I couldn’t believe that Mike didn’t know that I obviously wasn’t crying because of the book.
“Tami, what is her book about?” he asked
“I don’t know.” She said without even looking up
“Its not because of the book!” I nearly screamed
All I wanted to do was run away. To run home and fall into my moms arms where I knew I would always be safe. Laying down in bed and never coming up sounded great at the moment.
“Just forget it “ I said while trying to suppress a scream.
I wanted to scream out to the world “Why?!”!
At one point I was like “Fine. You know what if you don’t like me I don’t really care.”.That’s when I decided that ill always have my old friends so what did I need then for? Yeah for a while it was fun but we had nothing in common! There was kaitie the one that I turned to have some fun. There was Laney who I guess I was friends with, but it was like she was just there. We never hung out or anything. She would always call me when there was as problem between our mutual friends. The one that I hardly ever talked to was Ally. We never talked. I mean she tried to talk to me, but we never clicked. So apparently I didn’t lose a lot.Alright that day was both enlighting and weird. It was like ‘Should I be sad or mad’? That’s when I decided. Anger. Pure unadulterated anger. I decided that I wasn’t going to cry and waste my time thinking about these witches. My hand to god I could’ve called them a lot worse than that. All I needed that day was to have some fun. Do something that no one would approve of. Something incredibly insane. But unfortunately I’m not that type of person.