“All right, the three longest minuets of my life were up. It was time to walk through the bathroom door and find out that my life would be changed forever.” I look down at this plastic strip, there it was, positive. The 2 lines that made my stomach fall to the tile floor and made me overcome with nervousness. First thoughts that come to my mind, “I think I’m going to throw up, am I ready for a baby? Oh my goodness my life is going to completely change, I am only 18, no more normal life for me, I hope Jason doesn’t freak out when he hears this, and I hope my dad doesn’t freak out.” All I could do was stare at the pregnancy test with my life flashing before my eyes. I stayed in the bathroom for hours, thinking about how I would tell Jason when he got home. How was I going to tell my family while I was still trying to figure out how I felt about it?
My boyfriend Jason and I had just moved from Denver up to Vail to start a new life; with new jobs and a new luxury town home with the mountains right in our backyard. It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen. You could walk out your back, sliding glass, door and just go on a hike if you wanted. Beautiful open space and breathtaking when you saw looked outside every morning. We felt so grown up to be away from everybody, it felt like we were really on our own. We planned for our lives to be so much better there, not like the horrible jobs we had in Denver, not dealing with all the hustle and bustle of the city. We wanted to have new experiences together, to get away and do our own thing for a while. We wanted to make a vacation out of our life there, lots of skiing, hiking, eating out, and having fun. It was the life.
Not even a month after moving to Vail is when we found out that we were not going to be alone in life anymore, we were about to have a little baby come join us in 8 months.
When Jason came home that sunny afternoon from work, I had a little surprise for him. I showed him what I had been staring at for the past 3 hours straight. His first feelings were the same as mine, pure shock, just starting at it; staring at our future. I don’t think we spoke for a very long time; we just sat there thinking about what our life would be like now. If we could handle this type of adult situation being as young as we were.
After the dust settled we talked about what to do, were to go, what our plan was. We decided that it would be best to move back to Denver to be closer to our families during all this. We needed the support from everybody we had just left to be alone, ironic. We couldn’t do it alone we decided, so vacation time ended abruptly after that. It was time to go back to the real world and raise our soon to be family. We had to move fast if we wanted to get settled in before the baby came.
Well, moving back was the best decision of our lives. We moved back to Denver within 2 months of that day and went through the trails of pregnancy there, with the support of our families, let me tell you that is another story all in itself, but soon it was November 10th 2006 and we had our son Shaughn that night. As I was holding him after delivery I remember the exact feelings of looking down at that pregnancy test that day, this feeling was nothing like that. I was no longer nervous or afraid, I just felt feelings of complete happiness and joy, feelings of true love that I had never felt before and wouldn’t trade for the world, or the so called vacation life we thought we had. As I kissed my newborn son on his forehead I thought, “Now this is the life!”