I stood out of my car and leaned against the hood of my car. I saw his approaching lights and he skitted to a hault a few feet away from me.
same old Landon. i thought.
That thought brought a smile to my face.
"Tried to get here as quickly as possible" he said standing out of the car.
"It's fine" i said. He leaned agaisnt his hood also so we were directly facing each other.
We were close that if i reached out my hand I'd be able to touch his face.
"Start" i spoke.
He sighed and ran his hand through his hair.
"Well it all started when you left, like actually got on the plane and left" i nodded telling him to continue, and that i was listening.
"Well i missed you like hell. I couldn't sleep at night without talking to you, and hearing your beautiful voice"
"flattery won't get you anywhere, just tell me"
"well i'm not trying to flatter you, i'm telling you how i feel, and felt, if thats alright with you" he said rudely.
I rolled my eyes.
"go on" i muttered leaning back and resting my back on the windshield.
I was still able to see him.
"Anyways as i was saying. Without hearing your voice" he started from where he ended.
"so as time progressed i was able to cope some what with you being gone. not completley but still. i would visit this coffee shop everyday, at a certain time. It was on my way to working out, so i swung by the coffee shop.
"that's where i met Annie" I flinched when he said her name.
"She looked like you a bit, and i grew attracted and attached to her. We went out a couple of times, and i was overwhelmed of how she made me feel. Just like when you were here. But i knew it was wrong so i told her we were just friends. then stuff happened with my dad."
I perked up.
"He left me. Just like that. Left me the house and my car. It's all paid off of course but still abandonment is hard to take. I felt cold, alone...dead" I looked at him sorrowfully, i wanted so much to hug him at this moment.
"I didnt want to bother you, and worry you, so i called up the only other person i could, Annie. she rushed over and comforted me, and then thats when i kissed her, and i felt a surge of feelings for her. She made me feel alive and happy. I forgot you existed while i spent time with her"
Ouch that hurt.
"And when i realized what i was doing i just stopped calling you. Your parents helped me out, with food, and stuff and i bonded with your dad, he makes me feel like i still have one, that actually wants me. I'm sorry Avery i really am" he said finally looking at me.
I stood off my car and walked away from him.
"Avery!" he called. I heard footsteps behind me. When he spun me around my fist collided with his cheek.
"HOW COULD YOU! YOU ****!!WHAT HAPPENED TO FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!" I hissed.
He looked at me stunned.
"you think just because you tell me a sob story i'll forgive you. Yes i thank you for the honesty but you cheated on me FOR FIVE MONTHS! I was here for you Landon, i always was, your the one that left" i hissed, the tears were threatening to spill.
"Me! YOU LEFT!" he hissed back.
"UGH excuse me for wanting an education, and a better life for us!" i yelled back.
"and at least I was true" i said when he was pacing back and forth in front of me.
"Were you Avery, were you?" he questioned menacingly.
"Yes. I'm rooming with three boys that are attractive, but i always knew what i had back home was better. That if i did mess up, i would lose the one thing that made me happy...that made my world" i said the tears beginning to fall.
"Avery" he said softly coming towards me.
"DONT TOUCH ME!" i threatened.
"I dont like to see you cry" he said still coming.
"Well then maybe you shouldnt have broken my heart you ****. A blade through my chest would have been a lot less painless than this" i hissed.
"Answer me this Landon. Did Annie do all the things i did for you? Does she love you for you, or cause your hot? does she even love you? how about leaving notes for you like i use to? or always holding you when you felt down? or how about taking you to freakin New York to see the Damn Time Square Ball fall? huh? has she done anything that i've done? I dont think so" i hissed wiping my tears, but more came.
"She held me in my time of need!" he yelled defending her.
"If you would've talked to me, instead of going to some home-wrecking whore, i wouldv'e been back here so fast that you would have me to hold you!" i hissed.
Landon's face didnt change from his cold exterior.
"but i guess once a man-whore always a man-whore. I was stupid to believe you would change. I just can't believe i let myself fall for you, fall so deep into this." I walked around him, only to have him grab my arm and spin me around, smashing his lips into mine.
I didnt know what to do. My heart was broken, but i missed him.
But he cheated.
But he's my first love, i gave my virginity to him.
How could he do this to me?
I lifted up my knee and collided it with his sacred area. He doubled over on the floor.
"don't EVER touch me again" i hissed.
I ran to my car and pulled out so quick i got whiplash.
I raced home and pulled into the driveway.
I banged my fist against the wheel.
I stood out of the car, wiping my eyes, only to have more descend down. I walked inside and closed the door behind me.
I wasnt able to take another step, because i collapsed in a fit of sobs on the floor.
My breathing was hard, and my heart ached.
I felt so dead inside.
He should've just killed me, at least the pain would be gone.
I curled into a ball on the floor and grabbed my shirt where my heart was pounding wildly.
The tears streamed down my face like there was no turning them off.
"why Landon? why did you have to do this to me? wasn't i enough for you?" i asked sobbing.
I kept repeating those questions to myself, before i entered darkness.
Mike, Josh, and Lucas saw her curled in a ball on the floor crying her eyes out.
Josh stepped forward, but Lucas held him back, keeping them out of her sight.
"let her, she needs the relief" spoke Lucas quietly.
"Why Landon? Why did you have to do this to me? Wasn't I enough for you?" she asked heavily sobbing.
All three of the boys hearts ached. Their closest friend was in pain and there was nothing they could do to help her mend it, other than to beat up the **** who did it, but what good would come out of that.
Yes the satsifaction of making him feel just an ounce of pain she felt, but in the end it would only hurt Avery more.
She kept repeating the lines over and over until they heard her steady breathing.
Mike stepped forward, but Lucas put a hand in front of him.
"I got her" he said never taking his eyes off of Avery.
Mike looked up at him
"you sure?" he asked skeptical of Lucas's alterior motives.
Lucas caught onto this, and glanced at Mike, harshness in his eyes.
"i wouldnt do that" he hissed before going over to the fragile girl He had never seen her like this.
He always saw the indestructible Avery, the one that was frightened of no one. She could punch the daylights out of you.
It hurt him to see her like this, to know that one boy could go to lengths to hurt his Avery. To break her down so much, that their may be no point of return. He had lived with her for a year, an felt attached to her, all the boys did.
He wanted so much to cause Landon immense pain, he wanted to protect her at all costs. If it was a mere papercut, he would be their with a band-aid.
Heartbreak, he's delt with heartbreak before. One certain girl turned him into what he is now. and every one night stand he's had he's caused heartbreak to those girls. But this girl, Avery. Meant so much to him.
Yes his Playboy exterior was just that, an exterior, to hide his own broken heart, from those years ago.
Behind every playboy is a girl who made him that way. He wanted someone to bandage his broken heart, and tell him it'll be alright. But now all he could was mend Avery's first, and then focus on his later.
He picked up her small body. She seemed lighter, she wasnt eating like she use to. You could see the weight loss on her.
Avery curled up into his chest. He looked down at her as he approached the stairs.
Her tear stained face looked at peace. this is when she sought and got her peace, sleeeping.
He walked up the steps and into her room. he pulled back the covers and placed her gently among them.
he pulled off her shoes. he decided if he should go further.
He did. he stripped off her clothes leaving her in her undergarments. He stared for a mintue before realizing it was wrong.
He pulled the blanket upon her half naked flesh.
He leaned down and kissed her forehead.
"Landon" she whispered in her sleep.
Lucas's heart clenched. She still dreamed about him. Its only natural. he turned to leave when he saw Mike and Josh standing there.
"what?" he hissed turning off her light and leaving her room.
"just making sure you didnt do anything" said Mike. Josh nodded and went to his room.
"night guys" Josh called as he closed his door.
"you like her" spoke Michael after a moment.
"You dont know what your talking about" objected Lucas going to his room.
"oh but i do" he said still pestering him.
"she just means a lot to me ok? just like she does to you, and Josh. I want to protect her, from everything" yelled Lucas quietly.
Mike studied him for a mintue.
"thats understandable." said Mike before turning and leaving to his room. Lucas opened up his door, and got settled in his bed.
He stared at his ceiling just thinking.
I arrived home and put an ice pack on my balls.
Gawd she still kicks as hard.
I fell on the sofa and remembered her face.
She loves me i know she does, but I broke her, to an extent i dont think even i can fix.
My heart hurt as i thought of her face. the tears pouring down her face in uncontrollable streams. I never thought i could see Avery that hurt, especially me casuing it.
I **** up, bad.
I ran my hands through my hair and let out a frustrated groan.
"I'm such an ****!" i yelled in the empty house.