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 " It seems the place i'd like to go

   is where no one else can go

 it seems the place id like to be

is no one else but me

   all the things i would have liked to show you

things you'll never know

 then my body will lay be covered in dirty soil

   things now are possible and relitive

 instead of digging one big giant hole

 cause my mind has grow into something i never will know.............

      She had wrote "No disipline i ever recieved. It was not a game, it was a nightmire, I was created to destroy, to self destruct. I had slept with a gun under my pillow for a a month, hoping one morning i wake up feeling done. I am the best I'll ever be, i only get worse. In my nervousness and unability, i have to go. I wont make you feel the agony and the pain, nice to know you wee the only one who miss me. Hunts is constant rolling, contsantly smiling, as long as he's not by himself to much. He loves me, more then he love himself. The fact of it is he cant stand himself. If i dont die,  he will take his whole life for me, suffer so i dont have to. I know he had more to do with himself, thats why it has to be done. I'd rather think in times that you hate me, cause you should.. but my hands are much fuller then yours.  every time i hear your name it hurts me. before I had broke his heart, he had knew it. he knew i'd never come back tho he did not care. He had wanted me to be happy, he would make me be happy. don't let my lies decieve you it was at first hard to believe you, easier to let go then to hang on.