So you pick yourself up now and know well and good your just a reluctant participant of this unwelcome disruption.  You've got work to do, deadlines to meet and all sorts of demands in your position.  But your grip on this grace is no longer present.  Resist again, just like we always do, try and hold tight to that familiar place of comfort.  Cause what you feel right now is so far from comfortable, it's quite unfamiliar, and most certainly not your friend.  Just ease on up a bit if you will, try and loosin those reigns so firmly locked in your grip.  Square those shoulders and meet this displacement face on, cause it sure won't have a pity on you.  Will yourself through this lapse in progress, and you may find after all it's just a sheep in wolf's clothing.  More an ingrained condition of your subconscious than anything else.  This perception has once again deluded your interpretation of what exactly your dealing with here.  The nature of this human intellect and the forces contained within are quite simply their own.  Stubborn as we are, it's our nature to resist.  We wanna do things our way, always. 

     Now to refine yourself with such a stealthy state of mind is something any old fool could do, and I mean that.  But rest assured of one thing, without some good old zealous commitment, you'll just be passing time.  Now I'd recommend, if this here is what you've chosen to be,  just assume make this a priority.  But that in itself, such committment, is a task fit for discussion all by it's lonesome.  You see, that old cat is an elusive one to wrangle. I've taken more than a share of  losses tryin to hold that one at bay.  But that right there so happens to be an adverse aspect of what it is you do.  So certainly, you're best served to make peace with the process, cause that's precisely what divides you from that place of comfort you pine for.  Back where it's not so much effort to be what it is you feel you need to be.  Now left with no choice, you'd do well to adjust yourself to the discomfort of your position.  Be there with it, cause it's sure to be around for a while, may as well welcome the challenge.  Sponge it up and grow tolerant, it'll only enhance your future endeavors.