The joy of bringing smiles back to Dad’s face gladdened my heart. I felt much better after then. It hurt me to see Dad sad, and I would gladly do anything to make him feel better. I was already doing something.
I still wore the smiles I had all afternoon at dinner that evening. Dad was yet to join us. He had some work to finish. Brother turned to me and asked,
“Hey baby, what’s the secret of this sudden blissful mood?”
“Nana says you’re only a baby till you’re two. And I am in this blissful mood because I believe Nana is already with God in heaven.” I answered.
He gave me a stare as though he wanted to say something in response to my answer. He stopped. Mom stared at me. She felt sad for me. She knew how much I missed Nana and felt I was still harboring the pains of her death, which was making me think the way I did and say the things I said. But they were wrong. I knew better. I was feeling peace and no pains at all.
“Eat your meal, me dear.” She finally got the words out of her mouth. “Nana sure is gone to be with God, and one day we’d all be together again in heaven with God never to part.”
I gave her a nod of approval.
Dad joined us. He was in a better mood.
He hailed as he came to the table. He wore a vivid and broad smile. He came up to me and gave me a smack on the forehead.
“I love you kiddo.” He whispered to me, and took his seat.
Mom was a little surprised though glad to see him in a better mood. She wanted to know how he managed to get over the sadness that soon.
“Nana wants us to be happy rather than sad; for, she is gone to a better place.”
A sudden but blissful silence followed on.
After dinner, I retired to bed. I turned my face to the heavens and muttered a short prayer.
“Dear God, keep Nana always with you and treat her well.”
That was all I could say. I was not used to praying and didn’t know what more to say. I wished I could have the chance to see Nana and tell her how I feel.
I had hardly hit the bed when the gentle hands of sleep cuddled me away.
That night, I had a very frightful experience, which I still can’t tell if it was real, a dream or a vision. I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to see who was there. Normally, when the family was in such sad mood, Mom was in the habit of checking us all occasionally at nights. But this time, it was not Mom. I turned and saw Nana seated on my bed beside me. She smiled at me. I was both scared and glad at the same time. I wanted to scream aloud and let everyone in the house know that Nana was back to life, for so I thought. But it was as though something shut my mouth. Nana smiled broadly at me again. I felt a great peace such as I had never before felt. At the moment, I knew it was not real. I had to be dreaming, I said to myself.
Nana stood up and beckoned on me.
“Come with me.”
She held out her hand to me.
I got out of my bed and held out my hand to her. We moved toward the window, and passed through the wall. I was amazed and excited all together. We floated in the air as it were until we got to a very beautiful garden. I had never seen such a beauty anywhere before. Nana took me to a small cottage on the west of the garden beside a pond. The sight was magnificent and glorious. I was enchanted. I saw birds of all colors fly around the garden making sweet melodies I had never before heard. I saw some animals roam freely about the garden. I felt I was in heaven.
Nana took me inside the cottage and carried me on her laps. She didn’t say anything to me, but kept smiling all through. Then she brought out a flower, the most beautiful I had ever seen and gave it to me.
“Keep this always with you.”
I took the flower and hugged her.
Mom’s call for breakfast woke me up again as usual. As I opened my eyes, the flower lay beside me on the bed shining more beautiful with the rays of the morning sun.