I'm striving for more independency. It's not because I'm too proud to ask others for things, it's just that I have to fend for myself sometimes and not wait for other people. Or if you ask me, wait on other people, either. You see, time waits for no one, and you know what, I ain't either. Not anymore I'm not. Independency means to me that I have to do things on my own, even if I have to go to places alone. I mean, it is nice to have friends around, but when some cannot keep their promises or not even remember that they had plans with you and/or doesn't reschedule with you when they say they will, that really annoys the world out of me! I know not everyone can be loyal, but please have the common courtesy to call me or text me to tell me that it's not a good time right now or that you forgot that we made plans! Jeez! Everyone has a different definition of what a friend means, so I know we are not on the same page all the time. But sometimes independency means you have to walk alone when some aren't even with you.
I'm not working right now, so I am doing the best I can to find ways to obtain money, even if some of those doors slam right in my face even though people have a smile on their faces while saying they cannot help me, especially when I wanted to raise autism awareness and money to do some poetry reading of my own. So for right now, I am selling autism awareness ribbons to raise awareness and to help myself financially until I can actually get a part-time job. I did have a bowl-a-thon to raise funds for autism awareness this summer, too. Even though there is a recession going on, I believe that God will put me in the right job at the right time, and on His time. But believe me, it's hard not having a job right now, but I'm not the only one who is experiencing this.
But independency doesn't mean I'm not going to have support. Far from it, because I have all the support I need from those who really, truly care about me in their own way, and I thank God and appreciate them all.